Vent!

Before the baby was torn from my uterus, I had lots of offers for help after his birth. My MIL promised to be here every day when Carmen had to go back to work, another friend offered to be my back up if she couldn't come. Well the day comes for carmen to go back to work, on Monday one week after the c-section and guess what, no help. MIL is feeling dizzy and doesn't want to drive, FIL is in the city for the week. The back up friend can't come either, can't get off work, and is sleeping the rest of the day. So it is just me, not able to drive, or lift, not supposed to climb stairs. I am so frustrated. My house is trashed and I am so tired. It has been just me all week and Carmen is working all weekend too!

Update!

I finally am feeling back to normal, for the most part. I am getting very aggrevated with not being allowed to drive...or lift anything. I feel like a prisoner in the house! Carmen might actuallyl let me come to walmart with him today! I am going to put baby christopher in a snugli so no one can touch him! Things are going great. Christopher is a great baby, he sleeps well, eats well and is just a delight. Sarah loves him and is being a big help. She is also getting frustrated with not being able to go anywhere...but things will get better soon. I am going to try and post a picture.......but I am not very good at it so it probably won't work!

I Just Have to Say it...........

I am married to a SEX GOD!!! I will say no more though, for that would be TMI!

I think I speak a different Language

Okay so last week I call my husband on the phone and I say, " I need tires on the car." The car is shaking badly and it is becoming a saftey issue." He Says, call and get prices but we can not do it now we will do it before winter. I Say" it can't wait they are really bad. He says "it is summer now they will be fine for a while" I sigh and give up. So today we are out and we come out to the car, and he looks at the front tires and says "wow these are bad" Why didn't you tell me they were so bad!" WTF!!!!! I did tell him over and over and over. I practically begged for tires. So now he is mad because I didn't tell him they were bad...when in fact I did. The problem is he doesn't listen, and he doesn't take me seriously. I am so frustrated I could just cry!

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When does it get better?

I am so frustrated...I am doing everythign I can to try and be a good wife, preg or not....I have been trying to keep house better, doing my dishes every day, trying to keep up with house work, cooking dinner as often as schedules allow, and even trying to be "intimate" which is much tougher than anything else. But even with my efforts it all comes down to a failure. I am not satisying DH in anyway....I just can't seem to do anything right. I just can't help but feel that even after baby things aren't going to get better.

So much for our nght out....

Well we attempted to go to a movie, but it didn't work out. We left after Sarah was asleep, around 9pm to go to a movie. One hour into the movie, which is 2 hrs and 20 min long, my BIL called to say sarah had been hysterical for 20 min and wouldnt' calm down. So we went home where we found her crying and miserable...she wanted mommy and nothing else. I finally calmed her down and got her back to bed. But too late to go back to the movie. Oh well......this is life as a parent!

Finally!!

Afer 4 weeks of trying to go we are finally getting to see Harry Potter. Every time we tried something came up. So my wonderful 17 year old BIL(17 today!) is going to babysit! What a nice kid, to babysit on his b-day! It will be great to have a night out with the husband for a change. We really need it!

Dr's are annoying!!!

I had my 37 week appointment today, and saw a different dr. This dr thinks I should cancel the scheduled c-section and let things happen on their own. So now I am torn. I mean my parents are coming up on the 12th for the c-section and they will be really dissapointed to miss it. I am also worried about trying labor and winding up with a c-section anyway. I do not know what to do!

Final Countdown

I have been missing in action lately, mostly because I have been busy preparing for new baby, working and taking Sarah to her many activities. I am officially on leave at work now, so I have more time. Sarah still keeps me busy, but it is a good kind of busy. She started Karate about a month ago and loves it, and is pretty good at it too! She recieved her first stripe and has been on cloud nine. She also does soccer, which she also likes, not quite as much as karate, but she still likes it. I am now officially 9 months pregnant. After months and months of thinking this baby had to be a c-section, and even scheduling that c-section, my dr. thinks that I have a chance at a regular birth. I am hoping nature allows me the oppurtunity, so I am her waiting to see when and what happens! I am now feeling very pregnant, slowing down, tired all the time, and one big pain everywhere! I live on tums and have even broken down and taken tylenol a couple of times......I am gettting very nervous now, about the birth and about life after..I hope I remember what to do! Well that is my update for now...have to get my princess ready for soccer, I will try to update more often...after all I spend more time sitting now than ever!

Can't Win

Just when it seems things might be better they all fall apart again. I once again have found that I am a failure as a wife, not much better as a mother and just plain miserable. Some days I just want to give it all up. This is definatly one of them.

Why I hate money!

I was having a really good day! Until I called the dealer to make an appointment for my car. We have to get it tuned up and have the timing belt changed. It is way over due for the tune up and with the new baby coming we really need it done. THe car is close to 100 thousand miles so we can't afford to have it break down. Well anyway the estimated cost for the car is 800!! I have to have it done. Our local mechanic won't touch it for these type of things because it is a Hyundai and you need to be a Hyundai specialist apparently to properlyl tune them up. So as soon as our tax return check comes in it will be flying right back out....oh well at least the car will be in good shape. We still need to get tires and brakes, but the local guy will do that for us, and he is cheaper. OH well. I guess I will go and try to salvage my good day and take sarah out to the park....at least that won't cost money!

Annoyed!!!

I am getting super tired of hearing from everyone that I am carrying this baby so small, and how wonderful I look, and how lucky I am! I just want to scream! Yes I am carrying very small, for 7 months preg. I am lucky if I look 4 months. However, my baby is the same size as any other 7 month fetus...which means, that he is taking up just as much room. So just because I am small on the outside does nto mean that I am happy and feeling normal. My stomache is squished to the point that I can hardly eat, I am lucky if I can eat as much as my 4 year old in one sitting. My bladder is being squished, and we all know what that causes. My back is killing me, as is my butt, since all the pressure from the inside is causing all kinds of painful issues in that area. I am exhausted by days end since most days I am on my feet all day, whether it is because I am at work, or trying to keep up with an active 4 year old. I just wish everyone would realize that just becuase I do not have a huge belly doesn't mean that I am not just as miserable as any other pregnant woman who has entered the 3rd trimester!! Yes I am whining here, but I have a right!!!!

One of those days...

I am having one of those days where I am feeling like I can do nothing right. I am a failure as a wife, mother and just in general. Once again I let my husband down, and I know he deserves better. I am achey all over and feel crappy today which makes me even more miserable. My house is a mess and I can not get the motivation to get up and clean it. I really do not want to go to work......I jsut want to stay home and be miserable today.

A Penis question

LOL Now that I know I have gotten some attention....I have a question for any moms of boys. Did you circumsize...and if you did, have you regretted it? I have been doing a lot of research and talking to people from both sides....and it seems that there really is no real reason to circumsize..other than it is what was always done. I have read a lot of info about adverse effects of circumsizing, and a lot of benifits of not doing it. Is there anyone who has insight into this. I am pretty sure I do not want to do it, but hubby has a totally different opinion...and since he is the one with the penis, I want his support in this.

I'm Back!!

I finally remembered my password...so I can post on my blog again! Almost 7 months preg. now and feeling more and more nervous about the new baby. There is so much to do to get ready for this little man. I am worried about money, worried about how Sarah will handle things, and worried about how I will handle things.
Today I had the biggest scare of my life, I was in the kitchen on the phone with hubby when I heard a thud thud thud, and I knew what it meant, I ran out of the kitchen in time to see sarah cartwheeling down our 13 wooden steps, I got there just in time to see her slam the back of her head into the wall. I grabbed her and checked her all over, finding only a small scrape on the back of her head, but it was such a hard hit that I took her in to the dr. They scared the life out of me when they were concerened that the right side of nose was leaky, they went and got a special test to see if it was mucous or possibly spinal/brain fluid!! The test was negative thank god, but still scared the life out of me. I have to keep a close eye on her for a day or two but so far she seems perfectly fine, I however am still very shaken up, and have felt ill all day from it. I am sure I will be having nightmares all night!