Why I hate my husbands hobby

It is not that I actually hate his hobby, just that I hate how it affects me.......now my husband thinks I am selfish for my feelings but Ireally am not......here are some of the reasons I hate when he goes to his "club:

1) After working all day and not seeing him, he leaves and is gone untill 11pm or later......Sarah and I both miss him, and Sarah becomes quiete miserable at bed time.

2) if a problem comes up(and lately they always seem to) he is to far away to do anything, and he yells at me for calling him to try and get some help.

3) In order to get to his club he has to take my car, since his is a bomb, and that leaves me carless and dependant on other people.

4) I feel like I can't call to say hello, or just to get reassurance after a tough night, since I have been told that I am a nuisance, and that I do not give him any peace....so missing my husband is not an option apparently.

5) no matter how many times I confront him he spends way too much money on his models and other stuff, and he doesnt' ask me(or discuss it with me) when I spend any money I check with him first...and since money is tight, I think I deserve the same.

6) Sometimes it seems like his hobby and his club are much more a priorty than we are.........I know that isn't true but sometimes it feels like that.......

7) Okay I will admit some of it is jealousy, having giving up my own hobby(marital arts) to have more time at home and to save some money, I feel a little jealous (okay a lot) that he has not made a similar sacrifice.

8) I hate being alone at night.....( this is mostlly not the case tough as I have a friend who is normally here on the nights he goes otu, so this point is not really that valid.

Okay now that I have gotten all that out...and knowing my h usband will be reading it, and most likely take it as a personal attack, which it is nto....I simply needed to vent my feelings and frustrations....knowing full well that it would not change anything, and not expecting it to change anythign....all I am hoping for is some opinions, takig sides is fine...I just need to know if I really am being as unreasonable in my feelings, as my husband says I am.

A little Motivation goes a long way!

It is amazing how a little motivation can get you moving. As some of you may know, Carmen and I have a some issues with orginazation when it comes to our house.....we try to be neat but it just doesn't happen. Well I have been really depressed lately about our house and how bad it looks. We just found out that our good friends will be moving in right down the road from us....which means that we will be having them over all the time for play dates and such.....well now I have a reason to clean! We have really started to get things going....laundry is getting done, toys are being put away........it is great! I hope it keeps up.....it is a great feeling!

Feeling like a bad mom....

No matter how much I swear I will nto yell and threaten Sarah, it seems she always pushes the right buttons. Once again I used yelling and threats to get her to listen....I am so upset.....she wouldn't nap for me, and I need her to nap because we are going to fireworks tonight....so I layed down withher and tried....she tossed and turned and climbed all over me....and refused to sleep. I took away her new toy(a pocket watch) and threaten to throw it away....that didnt' work....she still kept it up...so finally I picked her up and yelled at her, told her to go to sleep now and knock ti off....of course she cried, and of course I got upset and told her I was sorry but she needs to listen. So I put her in her own room, kissed her gave her her watch back, and left.
She is now asleep....but at what cost....I yelled at her made her cry....she probably hates me

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I wanted to share our Fourth of July picture, a rare picture of the whole family.....the all american family LOL. Enjoy.

Happy 4th!

Happy Fourth of July! I hope everyone has a safe and happy holiday weekend. We have been busy, a party at my sister's house on Saturday and a party at my step-mothers on Sunday....Sarah played hard both days....poor kid is exhausted but she had a great time. Tomorrow we take her to fireworks......her first actual fireworks, she has seen them before but from a distance this will be her first upclose expierence!